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Sunday, February 29, 2004

 
He sent me an email (student union guy) back and let me know that he's okay with it. He had some sort of an idea that I was jagu (yup, this was the word he used... 実な英な文). He told me that his attitude towards me would never change and that he felt a lot closer to me since I was more honest to him. He broke up with his girlfriend that same night...
7:10 AM

Thursday, February 26, 2004

 
Eu ditza verita a meu student union co-staff. we got to talk about this girl he started dating who is also part of the org. as i was giving him advice and opinion about love and dating, tapu sia natanon aku kun aku mai ai-ai taho rati-rati. a stream of rapid electrical pulses of thoughts came firing back and forth in my mind "what should i do, what should i say, what if say this? etc..."... i then decided to lie at nasabi sa nia "oro-oro". i was hoping he wouldn't ask further but he did. he asked me whether sia ta-puru-arau. i hesitated a bit, once again the electric pulses! yet again, i lied and i said yes.

i sent him an email today and made a confession. i'm making an effort not to lie things like this. i have decided to be more honest to myself at tangafu an totoho na aku.

can't wait what sia na riaksion...
2:38 PM

 
it was a very special day today. it was a day of revelation. i bumped into our class t.a. (teaching assistant) for my japanese class this afternoon. we had coffee and conversation. after a long talk, he then asked me in a very hesitant voice くんあくあいやぐ. i knew it was coming from the manner he shifted the conversation from one topic to another and from the tone of the voice. i was also suspecting なしゃやぐ from the way しゃ話、がわ etc and his interest in linguistics (i think most guys studying linguistics or anything to do with languages やぐじゃ .. haha, well that's just my theory)... in fact, i have a 小な愛さきゃ ever since あくしゃな見 when that class started. we exchanged a few e-mails in the past but i just じかや質さきゃ.

... so I said, "Yes, I am!". i think i got too excited to answer. then しゃさきんな言なしゃりん. after that, we just both burst into more interesting topics, such as 誰さくらすなみんあんじゃぐ, about the professor who knows about him and how open she is, etc etc. i've become so interested さきゃむらぬん.

he would be たまな愛人さきん. he's only a couple of years たんださきん, しゃがんだ男, very friendly, considerate, polite, kind, and he's the only じゃぐな linguist i know so far, and so, 同な interest まいかみ.

i don't think he's crossing the line because he's not exactly a TA. He's just assisting the professor in the conversation part of the course. He doesn't even come to class every session. So, technically, he's neither a TA or a teacher. Age is not an issue as ２年らんたんだにゃさく.

i think i'm beginning to fall in love again... i think しゃあいさく...

i began to wonder why he asked me... 好にゃかやあく? hmmm... i do hope so.

what's interesting though is that we both spoke in japanese all along... i was quite impressed of myself. well, he's a teacher so he is fully aware of my level. he... he... i felt so comfortable talking to him.
1:27 PM

 
my midterms are over! now it's time for essays! sh%@t!

an hour and 50 minutes of essay writing for my Tale of Genji (genji monogatari) course... argh... i was so hungry my stomach was growling constantly i had to leave without reviewing my essays... i was so embarrassed... i had breakfast... i guess it was just i was so stressed out there was too much acid in my tummy at that time... oh well, i'm glad it's all over, midterms anyway.
4:37 AM

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

 
apple made a great improvement to Safari! i can actually view pages i couldn't view before, such as Bell's internet service provider's site!

unfortunately, i am still being plagued by startup problems with my iBook. a friend told me it could be hardware problem. noo! i can't give up my iBook even just for a day for repair! i can't live without it, especially during essay writing time! >___<
11:52 AM

 
... still brain-crunching... i can't wait till my exams are over... but then after that, i have to prepare essays... >___<
9:55 AM

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

 
so tired and hungry... been studying since 1:30 PM!
7:57 AM

Monday, February 23, 2004

 
the library patrol guy is so 小がんだ！＾＿＾
12:20 PM

Sunday, February 22, 2004

 
i got to chat with this very あいあいならき from japan who has lived in montreal in the past... あいあいなあいあいならきしゃ and i really enjoyed chat さきゃ . if he were only in toronto, date くしゃあがだ. he's coming to visit montreal again in april so i might get the chance to meet him there. we'll see.
4:54 PM

 
i say good-bye to msn messenger... it's just making my life more miserable... i just got rid of it from my dock*...

* - mac os x dock, that is...
10:13 AM

 
ぼく、寂しいのよ。。。なぜこの失恋？
10:05 AM

 
i'm starting to hate the world... >__<
9:37 AM

 
it's msn messenger buddies clean up time...
9:21 AM

 
i'm giving up...
8:35 AM

 
i hate mind games... i was on msn yet it looks like he was ignoring me... what's going on? i will not give in... i don't need that... i have my own pride... yes, i should really give it up, but i won't...

and for him who ignores my e-mail, i am very sorry to you too... i will ignore you too from now on. it's a shame... it wouldn't have been this way but you want it, so you'll get it.
8:16 AM

 
new mcdonald's cups, featuring "i'm lovin' it" in different languages, including Tagalog ("Love ko 'to"):

7:40 AM

Friday, February 20, 2004

 
ok... ok... i'm getting tired of people asking me what i look like... they are just not satisfied with the disturbing image of myself on me "about me" page... is that my own vain i'm smelling? ^___^ ... so i added -- my photos page (only me.. sorry!). i hope nobody steals them and do funny things with my photos... ^___^
1:46 PM

 
i am so happy!!! i am so happy i started speaking many languages!... forget what i just said... but yeah, i'm so happy my face is filled with colours once again... it's like being a teenager again ^___^ ... a teenager in love! i got to talk to G again (しゃあく interest さきゃなゆん ... refer to previous blogs ^___^) and he apologized to me once again... i told him that i was ok with everything... we talked about so many things and at the end, i found myself having 夜かいんな date 明日 ^___^ ... さやさやあく！ ... la la la...

i went to see my friend S and we had Vietnamese dinner... I had my usual favourite "pho" and fried spring rolls. i missed chatting with him. we talked about many things. i really enjoyed my time with him. too bad he has to go back to korea for military training for 2 years... i'll miss him for sure.

my inbox is filling up again, gotta reply quick! >__<
12:27 PM

Thursday, February 19, 2004

 
i'm such a drama queen... it must be a part of growing old...

i added a "play music" section in the main page so readers can listen to one of my favourite songs while reading my boring blog, i guess.... enjoy.
2:59 AM

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

 
We talked... he didn't mean it. He was just innocent about these things. He admitted that he was stupid but I disagreed. I think he is smart. I do admit though な心中く成いん強なんしゃ apologized さく . His mind is so pure, innocent. あいあいくしゃ but I think it's better not to be involved. I really didn't have the right to get upset だひじぱかみ . I just couldn't believe that しゃ fooled around なまい date かみ同な週なゆん after and had the guts to tell me about it. I don't know. I'm not really mad at him, I'm not. I still あいあいしゃ , but I think I should not pursue any longer.

Sometimes, I feel あいあいくな life has been cursed...
2:27 PM

 
A proof that I did clean up my Inbox (except for 2 e-mails that I received later today of course):

1:41 PM

 
i just found out that ならきな interest あくまいるんあと who i'm going to have 夜かいん明日, な寝さまらきな online な会 . it all happened just last week. i'm very upset about it. i don't know if あく会しゃ明日. i don't feel like it.
10:03 AM

 
At last! I have cleaned up my Inboxes in all my e-mail accounts! I have replied to a total of 60 e-mail messages since Sunday!
8:04 AM

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

 
Hidamari no Tami's have landed Canada! I took this photo from a toy shop in Toronto. They're official and not one of those fake ones I saw in a Chinese mall north of Toronto.

2:40 PM

Monday, February 16, 2004

 
I replied to 29 e-mails today! Most of them are from October! I am terrible! A good friend of mine is going back to Japan tomorrow. He's such a nice guy. Sia tangafu an totoho na aku and I am very thankful for that. Most of my Japanese friends who I met in Toronto have been very open-minded at ma-tangafu. Aku nasabi sia totohonan two weeks ago. I didn't want to leave him out. He already hang out sama-sama tomo-ai na aku without knowing ken kami-kami ahi babalaki. His friend, my roommate, already knew ken akunan since last year. Same thing with his girlfriend. Sia mahi shiru-lihi about what what was going on since he saw my friends na ai-ai-tahu-tahu, kapi-kamai, and yet, he remained benuri sa amin.
2:57 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2004

 
I finally got fed up with the problems I've been having on my iBook in the past few weeks so I did a clean install of my OS's on my system. My iBook kept freezing on me everytime I put it to sleep and then wake it up. As soon as I restart, it would take about an hour to reboot it... I'm not kidding! I was close to selling it and replace it with a PowerBook Pismo which I've been eyeing in the past few weeks, but after consultation with Mac pros, they told me not to.


So it's Valentine's Day, and here I am, lonely and single... ** sigh **