Wednesday, January 18, 2006
I didn't realize I became a year older after my sister sent me a text message wishing me a happy birthday... man... I'm getting older! My friends will be taking me out for a dinner and some drinks this coming Saturday... They have been very nice to me. I've been very confused recently... I've been thinking a lot whether or not I should extend my contract for another year. One day I want to stay, the next day I don't want to... I don't know. I'm leaning more towards not staying. I've been very very homesick lately. Maybe it's just natural and it will soon go away... but... I don't know... We'll see.
12:10 AM
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Why is everyone so cold to me all of a sudden?
11:57 AM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Exactly one week ago, I boarded the plane back to Japan. It was a very sad moment for me leaving my family behind in Canada.
God I'm so homesick right now...
11:27 PM
Thursday, January 05, 2006
New Year's Resolution!... "Unlost" Love
YESSSS! I've been very good with fulfilling my New Year's Resolution this year: "To be up-to-date with my e-mails". I have been replying to my e-mails like crazy since New Year's Eve! I had 200+ (I can't remember exactly) e-mails in my inbox before New Year's Eve and now, I'm down to 66! Not only that, I replied to all my 2005 e-mails and so I shall start replying to my January 2006 e-mails! I really wow-ed myself! ^ _ ^ haha.
Argh, two more full days to go and I will be going back to Japan. I'm kind of sad since I will be leaving my family again. Sometimes, I've been thinking I should've never returned for the winter holidays because I will have to go through the good-byes and all that, again... I am such a crybaby.
I actually feel very bad to some of my friends because I couldn't see them all during my short stay here in Toronto. I wish I had more time.
Today, I read through past e-mails my ex sent to me while we were dating. These e-mails brought back so much good memories. They rekindled past feelings and after reading them, I had this urge なためさましゃ再. I didn't realize how much あくはらがさきゃ. The truth is, I am still very much subconsciously あいじきさきゃ. I always have this hope that someday we will get back together again, now that we are a lot closer than we were when we were in two different continents. I realized also perhaps this was the reason why I could not hold a straight relationship with anybody else... perhaps. 非く止さきゃ言あん中心く and so あくな送さきゃけん e-mail and confessed さきゃあん実なんな中心く. I understood how selfish of me doing this kind of thing さきゃなもししゃあひ very happy 今なさまさまかにゃ新な愛人... Well, I really don't know if that's the case. All I can do right now is to wait さかにゃな返... even though あくな言さきゃな非かいらななまが e-mail さく.
12:49 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
I really don't like this year's New Year's Day. I just kept reassuring myself that this was just another New Year's Day... nothing so special about it.
2:19 PM
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