snowdusk

tuesday, january 30, 2001

 
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Patrick wearing my earmuffs... he thought they were cool.
12:22 AM

 
I just can't stop playing saigono iiwake... it's such a sweet and cute song... I'm glad somebody else likes it too... hey dannybunny, I'll be waiting for the personalized pixel people you promised to make me, 'k? ^_- hehe...
12:03 AM

monday, january 29, 2001

 
hmmm... Jerwin just posted a very interesting blog commentary... I think I put myself under Caste 4, the bohemians the flower people... I think I spread goodwill and "linkly love" to everyone and every blog for me is great... except for Jerwin's which. I think is the greatest (oh no, this makes me Caste 2 who "kisses the elite's ass".. ooops..hehe.. just kidding)... and I definitely love flowers! Can you tell??? ^_^
11:54 PM

  I just had a talk with a friend... we talked about dating and stuff and he asked me for some advice... after I hung up the phone, I realized how long it's been since I last dated or went out with somebody... and that was around September last year I think... I don't know... I haven't been paying a lot of attention to it lately.... it crossed my mind but for some reason I really don't have the energy and time to be on a date or to look right now. Hmmm... I don't mind being single... I'm actually liking it... the only time loneliness kinda hits me is when I'm around friend-couples...
11:35 PM

sunday, january 28, 2001

 
I can't believe I worked on my java assignmentthe whole day today... including night!... I finished it but I'm not even sure of my answers... most of them were guess work... argh... I hate it. Why did I ever choose that as an elective?! ... I thought itwould be awesome to learn it so I took it... I think the course is easyif not for the professor making the assignments too complicated. :-( if it goes on like this, spending my weekend studying and doing assignments, I'll never gonna have a life.
10:57 PM

saturday, january 27, 2001

 
oh man... there's so many bloggies categories! I don't have time to check them all... I really only want to vote for oneblog site... and that is --- 2xy.org=f(ab)!... I wonder if I can just do that... Good luck, Jerwin! ^_^
9:01 PM

 
oooh... I just finished watching X, the animated version of the manga... it was amazing but the ending was sad... :-( I like the ending theme song.. I should download it somewhere.

I cleaned up my room, yes! I had so much bills and other stuff tofile... I had them pile up since November I think.. see, I have two trays on my desk - the top one are things to be looked at (or pending stuff) and the lower one is for "closed" or "finished" stuff... I'm such a geek, aren't I? I kept telling myself to file them right awayinstead of putting them in the lower tray...

I still haven't started doing my assignment... I'm such a procrastinator...

ouch... my left leg is sleeping....
7:26 PM

 
I had the weirdest dream last night! Threedifferent stories.... first one was quite disturbing... I had a cancerand that my hair was falling off... I could see my hair falling offeverytime I touched them and everytime I shook my head... I got thecancer because I dyed my hair a lot... silly dream... but I got reallyscared! Second dream: I found out one of the once famous Wilson Phillipsmembers was missing! I didn't know which one... because I was too eagerto help I called Chynna Phillips' mom and offered to help (this didn'tmake sense because the missing member was one of the Wilsons and I wascalling the Phillips... and what's weird was that Chynna's mom is already dead... huh?). Anyway, the missing incident was suppose to be a family secret and I realized I just invaded the family's privacy and felt so bad after, that I wanted to write a letter of apology to Mrs. Phillips and promised not to meddle in their family business again.... this is crazy! Why dream about Wilson Phillips!! I used to be a fanwhen I was, err, 14 or 15 I think? This is embarrassing ^_^ .... andfinally the third dream, Jerwin and Iwent to an antique sale run by Filipinos... sale what? hehehe...

I finally started Final Fantasy VIII last night, it was fun! I woke up early today so I could start doing my assignment which is a pain in the butt... I get lost all the time in my prof's lectures... argh...I told myself as long as I passthe course, I'll be happy....
9:33 AM

thursday, january 25, 2001

 
I can't believe tonight was the only time I hadthe chance to blog from my home PC and read my e-mail... I've been busyin the past few days... work, school, eat then sleep... I work latetomorrow so that gave me time to sit down and do things I'm doing rightnow... I was gonna go snowboarding on Saturday with my friends butstupid assignment is on the way... I have to really do well in thisassignment to make up the last one I had... I screwed up on that onebig time... oh well...
11:57 PM

 
oh yay! my Outlook inbox at work is EMPTY forthe first time in so many months! I'm finally up-to-date with my e-mail^_^ I'm so happy! I'm such a geek...
10:08 AM

 
nope... i didn't finish my programmingassignment... it was my fault... i only started doing it in the lastminute... how typical of me... i submitted it anyway... i promise i'lldo better next time... now i know programming is not really for me... ionly took it as an elective anyway.

awweee... thanks Jerwin for the nice blog about me me me ..... that was so sweet... you know what? i know i'm 26 but somehow i don't feel like it... i still think i'm only 22 or something... ^_^ i'm really touched...
7:41 AM

wednesday, january 24, 2001

 
I feel a lot better, emotionally... although myprogramming assignment is still bothering me big time... I promise I'llbe nice to people today.
8:36 AM

tuesday, january 23, 2001

 
I bought Final Fantasy 8 yesterday and wow theintro was amazing. I'm gonna start playing it hopefully tonight.

I'm really bothered... but it's okay, I don't belong to their crowd...I have my friends... I'm happy.
7:41 AM

sunday, january 21, 2001

 
My friends took me out yesterday for dinner formy birthday, then we we went to a friend's apartment to open my giftsand then went for karaoke... It was fun! I was so happy. I was feelinga bit down in the past few days but that changed yesterday. I realizedthat I wasn't alone... and that I have friends who are always there forme... I realized the importance of being in touch with friends nomatter how busy you are in your life... and that friendship isirreplaceable. God I love my friends! I got really interesting gifts...some I won't even mention, for discreet reasons! LOL ^_^ I got X video which totally surprised me because I was going to get a manga version of it and my friend picked it up by coincidence.. Jerwin and Jeff gave me FriendsTop 10 Episodes collection, with a really original and touchingbirthday card and a "toy" ^_- ... I also got a nice fleece sweater, anice hat with "G" on it and a shirt -- all from Gap ... 2 books -Celtic mythology and an erotica one *ahem*... a big bucket ofChupa-Chups, The Talented Mr. Ripley video, chocolates,candles, cd racks, cd bag, and Bailey's!!!! My friends are so nice!!!

Okay back to my programming assignment....
1:45 PM

friday, january 19, 2001

 
I've finally defeated Sephiroth! Youjust don't know how happy I am right now... ^_^ I was so down today butsomehow winning this game uplifted my spirits a bit. The importantthing is I've killed Sephiroth and that makes me happy...
10:41 PM

 
I was too busy and exhausted yesterday I didn'teven have the chance to blog about my birthday ^_^ I didn't do anythingafter work because I had school after... but the people at work werevery kind enough to give me a birthday cake and a nice present... theyeven decorated my little workstation with colourful balloons... it was Tim's birthday too yesterdayso belated happy birthday, Tim!!! I need to get myself more organizedand get more rest... it's been crazy! I am so exhausted.... and I thinkI'm gonna be sick.
7:52 AM

tuesday, january 16, 2001

 
... i can't believe how busy i am nowadays -work, school and trying to defeat Sephiroth (yes, finally i'm in disc 3! it's about time! yet i'm still reluctant using the cheat codes and cheat card...). i haven't been checking my e-mails, my snail mails and even voice mails... i've been leaving my cellphonein different places... this time i left it on my desk at work... i'mlosing control... stress at work -- i've been trying not to let it takeover me and when it does i suddenly snap into my bitchy alter-ego... itold off one of my co-worker for not doing the right thing today and ireally felt so bad after... i apologized to her... i promised to myselfi'll never do that again to anybody. i lose patience sometimes. anotherthing came up... i didn't realize i have a school assignment duetomorrow by 5:30 pm. there is no way i'll finish by that time. i guessi have to settle with the penalties. i had the whole weekend to do itbut i did nothing. i'm also suffering from insomnia and occasionalstomach cramp - in the middle of my sleep! such a drag.

i'm going to bed.
11:51 PM

saturday, january 13, 2001

 
behold the "new old" version...

i went back to my old layout and just did a few changes... this looksmore alive than the previous version. i don't know what version numberthis is now. according to my records this is version 10. i started mysite back in 97 by the way.

.. i'm going to bed... i have a busy day ahead of me tomorrow... it'smy grandfather's first year death anniversary. it is filipino traditionto mourn for the dead for the last time one year from their death.there will be prayers, lots of them, and food. the whole clan willgather for this. in a way, it's a mixture of mourning and celebration.it is believed that the soul of the dead leaves the earth and his/herliving relatives completely on this day. i am very sure my grandfatheris happy where he is now.
2:45 AM

thursday, january 11, 2001

 
i am so tired... just got back from my nightcourse... myself and my co-worker Phil leave work the same time for ournight courses... we go to the same university. before we went to ourrespective classes we first stopped by this small japanese restaurantdowntown for some sushi. oh, they were so yummy, especially unagi(barbecued eel). i got to class an hour late. i got confused with myschedule. i am taking an intro. to computer programming using java. itwas quite overwhelming for me for the first night. i'm really behindwith programming. when i was about 12 or 13 i learned atari basic...it's definitely not the same! this is actually the second time iregistered for this course. the first time i dropped it because i gotso discouraged the first day with the same reason, i was overwhelmed...this time, i will not drop it. i like the professor because heencouraged the students not to drop the course.. he assured us that itwould be very confusing at first and that he was not expecting us tounderstand a word he was saying (somebody even asked if he was speakingEnglish at all.. hehe) the first night... i find that very encouraging.i felt safe and comfy in class, knowing the rest of the class wereprogramming-dumb like me.
11:35 PM

 
good morning! it's so weird to get back toschool again... i'm taking night courses at the university. it's soweird to be around students again. i feel so old.
7:44 AM

monday, january 8, 2001

 
this is fucking annoying... i just typed a wholebunch of things to blog... when i submitted it I get the message "thepage cannot be displayed"... and I lost the whole thing... i triedusing the back arrow on my browser it wouldn't work... fuckingpathetic! argh! I'm so mad....

i'm so sorry. i was really pissed off....

breathe in... breathe out... smile... breathe in... breathe out.. .smile

i'm so sorry again for the inappropriate language...

grrrrrrr!!! >:-(
10:39 PM

sunday, january 7, 2001

 
okay... i'm off for now... just going groceryshopping with mommy... bye!
1:41 PM

 
my dad made a really stupid joke last night...we were at a drugstore and we met his former co-worker... he introducedme to the lady... she told the lady my hair is blonde because I wasborn in Canada... doh... of course he was joking but it was stupid... Ismiled, turned my back and rolled my eyes...
1:30 PM

 
In memoriam to a beautiful flowergirl... myWinamp skin...

12:57 PM

 
I'm in the mood to listen to the only countryalbum I have.. hmmm... I'm listening to The Jayhawks' Tomorrow theGreen Grass album... reminds me so much of 1995, which I dubbed theyear of depression. It was my most depressive year. The Jayhawks is notpurely country, no, I put them under the classification of alternativecountry. Most songs in that album are sad, talking about lost loves,heartaches, survival, suicides, and stuff...
12:24 PM

 
I just finished checking my sister's Spanishtranslation assignment and oh my God, her grammar was so bad!Obviously, listening to Cristina Aguilera's Spanish album is nothelping.. hehe... she's taking a Spanish course in high school. Ishould start replying to my e-mails.
11:37 AM

saturday, january 6, 2001

 
I didn't realize I sometimes talk to mycomputer... my mom overheard me and told me about it.... weird huh?
3:47 PM

 
awwee.. what a cute cat! what breed is that? ^_^
3:31 PM

 
I think I'm lactose-intolerant.
3:14 PM

 
... oh and i also apologize for not respondingto my e-mails recently... i'm so sorry... i will respond to all of themdon't worry...
1:41 PM

 
hello. i would like to apologize to my few loyalfans about my negligence to blog. i have been blogging it's just icouldn't publish them through Blogger... i've tried numerous times buti got so frustrated. i only had 5 and a half hour sleep today. i wentclubbing with my 2 friends last night. i wasn't gonna go because i wasso tired but i ended up going anyway after so many convincings thenafter that we went to eat at our favourite Vietnamese restaurant forsome pho.
1:39 PM

friday, january 5, 2001

 
Okay... I don't think I was just having problemswith Digitalrice... I'm also having problems with Blogger.
7:38 AM

thursday, january 4, 2001

 
I've been having some problems FTPing to myDigitalrice server so I can use this as an alibi for not posting ^_^ Ifinally got more sleep -- 6 hours as opposed to my normal 5 hourseveryday, yay! I will aim for 7 hours tonight so I won't be as bitchyat work tomorrow. I've got nothing else to say so bye...
8:55 AM

tuesday, january 2, 2001

 
well, happy new year!

I haven't been blogging lately... I guess because it was a very busyweek for me (last week)... it was short but busy... my boss wasn'taround so I kinda supervised our group at work... I kept worrying aboutit - it drove me nuts... thank God my boss is back... well, I rewardedmyself with a new hair colour.

... I shocked pretty much everybody with the new hair colour... I'vehad highlights (sp?) before but never the whole thing...

New year's eve I was at a friend's house party... it was fun... Ithought I was gonna be drunk but I wasn't... I drank a lot but I didn'tget drunk, puke or have hang over the next day... it's called "pacing"- eat, drink, pause, drink, eat, pause, etc... am I immuned to alcohol?maybe the alcohol was not enough... hmmm... well that's good I didn'thave to puke or do silly stuff like the rest (you know who you are!).

I notice I'm becoming more and more bitchy at work... I wasn't likethat before... the result I got from the bitch test is becoming a reality... eeep! I dunno.. I get annoyed easily nowadays... could it be stress? I know deep down that I'm stressed out at work but I don't really want to admit it... I hide it but I think I can't hide it anymore... maybe that's the reason why... I need a vacation -- far far away... maybe I'm just bitter... I'll stop here.
11:18 PM

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